I was released from one year in prison back to this world I thought would be different to me than it was.

I spent Christmases alone and rejected by all who knew me. I became rage filled and violent so that I could reject others before they had the chance to reject me. I felt like my chest was a trash can where others filled me up with their garbage instead of the love I so needed.

There was a wall between me and the world. I was trapped inside and didn’t know how to cross over to the other side. I never heard the words from anyone... I love you. I never received a hug in eleven painful years. I ached inside from living for worldly accomplishments which never filled my desires to have a family accept me back. I longed to be worth enough to work for purpose instead of money. My bank account was fine - but my heart was broken.

The only way to end it all was to kill innocent people and return to spend the rest of my life in prison - where I felt I must truly belong.

It was at that moment in the darkness with my hand on the trigger of an uzi....

God spoke these words to me at my darkest hour....
You listened to man and you ended in prison - listen to Me and see where I lead you.
I want you to go unto the children who are walking down the same path you just crawled up from and prevent them from it - if you do not do this - you will be committing a sin of omission.
I said, but I am not worthy of any such act I am a sinner and my mind is psychotic and my heart is black and numb from the rejection of society after my return from prison... I am an outcast - nobody wants me not even my family. I’m not loved - I have no worth and I have no purpose in this life after prison.
God said ‘I need someone like you - who can reach into the darkness of others like you and lead them into the light’.
He said, I’m going to strip you of all worldly possessions - you will lose everything. But, he said... I will replace them many times over if you will accept this calling to open your heart and your mind to the pain and suffering of children and youth - and in doing so you will receive a healing therapy.
His words also told me DO NOT JUDGE THOSE WHO JUDGE YOU - instead turn to others and begin a family with them - a family of strangers will be worth more than forcing yourself on those who do not want you anymore.
I decided that day...to lay the uzi down and to humble myself, a sinner with a purpose, to accept this calling, no matter what obstacles it put in my journey. I decided that TRUSTING GOD WOULD SET ME FREE - I have sometimes never felt so alone, cold, living in an old warehouse freezing in 18 degree weather and in the summertime it was 118 degree oven like heat - alone but I have always felt God’s love in my life. No matter what people think of me - it doesn’t matter because this work called Bajito Onda is not for everyone... But for the ones it is for... We have become a world wide beautiful and loving family. Continents divide our bodies but not our hearts - we are now in African countries although I’ve never been. We are all over Latin Americas and even in the United Nations. Our family is huge and our hearts are connected as one blood - united for the same purpose in life. To live for the sake of others - HEAR OUR VOICES - SEE OUR FACES - WE ARE THE COLOR OF ALL RACES - WE STAND TALL SO OTHERS DON’T FALL.

This has not been an easy journey my friend but it has proven to me that when you listen to God - God will listen to you.
When you serve God and love children for their best interests God will love you.
When I go into prisons and I see the men standing there before me wondering if I am there to ridicule or belittle them by telling them of my great change in my own life therefore I am better than them - I instead ask that they accept me into their presence - in order that I let them know the real reason I am standing there before them. That when I was in prison, there was no one there for me. I never want another prisoner, no matter how horrible the crime to think they are without unconditional love and hope.